…breathing is trusting
i have some exciting news friends. this week i started taking ballet classes at a ballet studio in tempe. not sure if this is public knowledge, but just so you know i really love to dance. seriously
investing in this hobby is very intentional:
.1. i really like dancing, for reals
.2. i know that i need an outlet for sabbath and i am trying to take steps towards trusting God more by disciplining myself to take time for me and to rest
.3. i work at a church and am constantly surrounded by believers, plus i’m constantly surrounded by people much older than me. i needed an outlet for meeting people who are my age and for engaging with people who don’t know the lord (yet)
after spending 8 hours at this ballet studio this week the Lord has been teaching me a lot about the time i’ve spent in phoenix so far and where to move forward from here. it’s showing me that i can be the person i was in tucson here in phoenix. plus it helped me take a step back from being busy all day and to dream about where the Lord could take me in the future. it’s teaching me how to breathe again, taking ballet for me is a lesson on trust
one of many thoughts while doing plies at the barre…
i don’t know about you, but lately i’ve been thinking about how quickly life changes. days are moving quickly, how easy it is to become swept by the busyness of life.
.just yesterday i was moving to go to school in tucson, and now i’m trying to figure out how to live and start my career in phoenix. i’m back in the city i grew up in, eating dinner at my parents house and sitting in all of the old coffee shops i used to work in. shrinking back into the person i was before i moved is easier than i thought.
.during the two years i spent in tucson, God was introducing me to the woman he created me to be in the world. for the first time I met myself. before moving i honestly don’t think i knew who katie was. but by the lords grace he spent two years showing me where my identity is. he loved me and showed me my own beauty through the community he blessed me with. the lord ignited my spiritual gifts and showed me how to share them to bless and create community for others.
.it would be an easy thing to place my experience of tucson on pedestal and look down on my home town of which is my current calling. even as i have lived here for the last month or so i’ve realized that i am already living in routine and not expecting God to show up the same way he has in tucson. its easy to rely on my past experiences and easy to place trust in false places like money, appearance and routine.
am i going through another identity crisis? how do i manifest the woman i have learned to become in tucson and manifest that person into phoenix? i’ve regrettably failed more than i thought i would.
i need jesus.
my prayers and thoughts looking forward…
.today by the grace of God i am compelled to reclaim phoenix/gilbert/mesa/tempe arizona. it is a new day, in these cities there are new mercies and new words from the lord
.i invite the kingdom of heaven into the cities in and surrounding phoenix, may the spirit move as he pleases and align my life according to his will
.may the lord guide and establish a new community in phoenix and may he bless and protect my community in tucson
.left alone i am more weak than i realize, praise God for being a shield and a refuge, he is stronger
“I will love You, O Lord, my strength.The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised;So shall I be saved from my enemies.”
Psalm 18:1-3
